CONSTANTLY THINKING OF WORK...IS THERE A CURE?

Yet again I've come to that point where late at night all I can think about is work...so yet again I have to do some!

I'm thinking about my proffessional project mainly just about timing and research, i feel like I need to keep researching having done a hell of a lot already...I'm sure I've done everything they have said about? It's hard... I just keep thinking about if I need to do more!

Things I've researched

• Illustrators- collage and fashion.
• Newspaper design
• Newspaper- everything about them.
• News stories
• Fashion disasters, worst fashions
• Fashion graveyard which links it to a news story.

Oh god it just doesn't seem enough! But I've researched each one in bulk, putting it all together it seems like I probably researched enough but in my mind its not resting!

I feel like I'm really ready for designing though and I've got all this research I think it's confusing me because I've done i and I like so much of it that I don't know what style of illustration I would like to follow it's collage but just I like a lot of the styles I've looked at...

Maybe 

the best thing to do is look at my research ..take a step back and write what I like about them, and pick bits out, I keep looking at illustrators on a daily basis, but I think I finally have to come to a stop! So I will look at them and then make a list, and then just start designing..which I'm really excited about!

I don't want to have to keep putting off designing, but I think this will help me!

I see the tears from binocualrs, third year tutor mops them up

Went to a BA Hons Graphic Design today this afternoon.

Honest scared the shit out of me......

He said about it being very much you, and your own thinking, 'we are the facilitators', and its student centered. He talked about that you are given the brief, and you just do it, for example last year they were given a brief with a title called 90 minutes and they had to think about how they could graphically represent this, they say come back in a week with some ideas/ research, I know this is like our course but they seem to really be quite strict about this.

Something about dates for tutorials and they don't give fuck about if you come or not, present research etc. Dates are there and thats it., and if you say what do I do next they go fuck off or dumbstruck.

They showed us live brief work that just looked so proffessional- I have to really make my fmp like this.  I feel that if I want to feel happy and achieve getting into the third year I really have to prove to myself that I can produce the level of standard they seem to be at.

A lot of the work is where you have to find your own problem and you just research etc. The major point he said was about research being very strong and is what leads us to our ideas. He was really emphasising this and seemed to be the main point of the talk. 

He also went through the outline of the course ...  which I'm not going to bore you with.

He said about the projects individually, about it just being 'very very very very self projected' ... this is what I want, I do but at the end it just made me think am I really good enough? Am I really at that level where I think that I can work like this, like they are?

Everything made sense, absoloutly everything! Its just there to build ourselves up for the future, for our career, a lot of it seemed to be written work , but the good thing he said was that at the last project you can either major or minor in the written aspect/ or major or minor in the practical side... sorted, handwritten work has never been my thing.. the work just looked really good. many people seem to be concerned about the fact as being branded as FDA people?  As I write this I'm writing this I'm trying to convince myself that I can... just thinking.........................

Have u seen..

the GOD AWFULNESS that is the crisis logo check it out crisis.org.uk

Finish the D&AD

Today we went to the photography department and asked if we could get some kind of special lens- don't really know ask Martin!

But they just said to grab a a photography student so we met Andes who took a a few shots for us, and then put them on a disk, when we got back to the studio we put it on the computer.. but... it got rejected so we tried like the 5/6 Martin had , but none of them worked so we tried it on another computer... and finally it worked! WOOP!

I swear every time me and Martin work together we get these stupid trip ups... which are so small, but we usually get quite tired from working on things and small things like this just seem silly! but anyways... we worked on this in Photoshop, and used the burn tool as the crisis logo didn't come out that much, but the red came out which is what we had problems on the last shoot, but the red wouldn't come out, but we got that done, came into indesign, used help support us at www.crisis.org.uk.

Got the logo in black though we did try red- but god it didn't work, created an opaque box around it and a semi circle for the crisis logo to be placed, we had to scale it down though several times as it just is so bold, we thought as the logo is just GOD AWFUL that it would have been good if we could have redesigned it but thats off the point.. but yeah then we organised where it should go on the page, we decided near the bottom but thats what we have to figure out...but we are so much happier with it than the one we did previously... it just works.

PPRD

Just to do in the morning

• Scan images- and organise-PDF it, and print.
• Write a bit more on the parts I said I had to do.
• Just tweak my CV.
• Print off the rest of my portfolio.

Hand in

More of organising time

This is just what I need to do for the rest of the week-organising what needs to be done and by when to keep on top of my work, ready for my hand in.

What I need to do to complete my blog, even though this is continuing after PPRD deadline we have to show evidence of writing about our work and organising our time etc.

what I need to do to make my blog work

By monday I have to.......